Prelude to madness

An Entry

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 04:50:06 GMT

Well i rarly update this thing anymore due to Xanga and Myspace takin up my online time. But yes i'm still Alive and doin good. Tax refund is sendin my ass on vacation this year and i'm still workin at fedex and i'm goin back to school in the fall. Now I'm coutin the days till april. I'm finaly turnin 21 god damn i'm old. Its Time to kiss my Liver Goodbye lol. well thats all for now maybe i'll update again soon.

weekend

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 04:08:18 GMT

well the weekends been interestin friday we finished the demo the dude chris did an amazing job. so if anyone wants a free cd comment here. saterday i went out to eat with Lauren and my friend bob who i havn't seen since my short stay at community college. then we just chilled at my place(no six pack saterday) lol i have a feelin thats almost dead. ahh sadness. today was cool my sister and tom took me to shady brook farm to go on a hayride that was fun some 40 y/o lady freaked out and i almost pissed myself laughin.

well well well its been a long fuckin time

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 11:38:52 GMT

well to the few people who read this thing if theres any left its been so long lol i've bein doin alright. right now i work the over night shift at FedEx and if everything goes accordin to plan i'll be goin back to school in january to earn a teaching degree i'm goin full time. i can't afford to make the same mistake i made at community its time to take shit seriously. latly there hasn't been much goin on i work 5 days a week and when i'm not at work i sleep and practice guitar every wensday is band practice and i'll useually hang out with dan and sometimes paul one or 2 days a week. weekends are a different story though fridays are usually either mall or movie night but this one was to watch violent whispers practice and saterdays are six pack saterdays. As for me musically Guns For Children is no longer in existence it took me awhile but i relized that without the foundin members it just isn't GFC. I'm goin into the studio to mix and master the 5 songs we already recorded and hand copies to all the original members to do what the want with it. Me and Scott are continueing on with a new band but if that gets anywhere i'll post it. on the darker side of things i had 3 deaths in my family this month all within the corse of 4 days due to stroke, heart attack, and suicide. may they all Rest In Peace

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 04:24:57 GMT

Christ why won't I Let Go
I'll never know
i stuck my head in the lions mouth
and now it all seems so deserving

Blue Rasberry Balls

Tue, 04 May 2004 00:48:05 GMT

MY DICK TASTES LIKE JOLLY RANCHERS :)

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 19:11:45 GMT

yeah i'm seriously considering quiting the band. lately i just don't feel like i belong. i feel the band should truely be a four peice band cause both guitars play the same thing. and every time i bring somethin to the table it gets put on hold. i pour my heart and soul into my music and it just gets ignored. I don't know why i even try anymore.

yeah well

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 04:13:04 GMT

ok yesterday my buddy tom came over and drew flames on my guitar so hopefully i can start paintin it this week. Yeah My first day back from vacaion and i work'd a double shift and they're bringin me in an hour early tommorow oh well i'm off fri so thats cool.

yeah its been awhile so heres whats up

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 04:22:00 GMT

ok i'm on vacation from work this week so i got some time to update on my hands. on wens i went to my uncle matts house and he took the electronics out of my 7 string guitar so i could paint it. i got half of it sanded so hopefully i'll have it done in time for my show on the 24th. thursday i hung out with dan and we spent the day sandin my guitar. Friday i went shoppin for paint and lights well it turns out that nobody makes light for guitars so i'm gonna have to make it myself lol yeah that might happen. Then i went to midnight bowling with lisa and some of her brothers friends it was a good time. saterday was me and my grandpops joint birthday party(we're 3 days apart)it was fun but my mom got my underwear again eww. after that i went to the disengage show it was kickass but then some little basterds went and ruind it so i went to kellys house. for once bri didn't have to be home at 10 lol. sunday i sat around all day then i went to practice we try'd to finish up the song i wrote locked in my head but it's turnin out badly. wich sucks cause i spent a month workin on lyrics for that oh well maybe it'll fix itself in time. instead we worked on the other song i wrote called denial. its a better song and i think it'll tun out nicly
yeah tommorow's my birthday if anyone wants to give me a special hello well talk to ya later

yo

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 03:47:01 GMT

its been awhile i've been bored so merry christmas

Yo

Sun, 13 Oct 2002 07:09:37 GMT

Band search continues If you a drummer and you want to be involved in a metal band talk to me i'm also looking for keybord players

I'm Bringing Back the band

Fri, 11 Oct 2002 17:26:27 GMT

whats up everyone i got a band going but we're looking for a drummer so if your a drummer and you want to be in a band talk to me we've got influences from metal and punk. we're all seriouse about it and we're all aobut haveing a good time. so any drummers out there from philly hit me back

THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES

Thu, 26 Sep 2002 02:05:59 GMT

In America we have alot of freedoms that aren't offerd to us anywhere else in the world. Ex. Freedom of speech. We also have the oppertunity to make oursleves wealthy very easily. In my opinion the United States of America is the greatest county in the world and that makes me want to die.

In America a qualified man can be deny'd needed employment becuase of the color of his skin. Affirmative Action is ment to help give minorities jobs that might be deny's to them because of discrimination. Men like Martin Luther King Jr. fought all their lives to end Discrimination and have equality between people of all races. Now with Affirmative Action minorities recieve extra points on tests like the SAT's becuase they aren't white and they also get favord for jobs. Yet Hate crimes are still very much alive with neo-nazi's andgroups like the KKK. Minorities are still very much discriminated against and now whites are discriminated against too. So How does affirmitive action help this? It don't it only made things worse. The percentage of hate crimes significantly increased since Affirmative Action was in effect. And discrimination is very much alive. This only promotes racism on both sides. But thanks to Affirmative Action and the slavory crimes during civil war times, societyfinds it ok for minorities to hate whites. But if a White man makes a racist remark he should burn in hell and he is charged with a hate crime. I'm sick of being the root of all evil just becuase I am a strait white man.

In America we have a thing called Criminal Rights. Rapists, Murderers, Theives, and Child Molesters sit in prison liveing a better live then some innocent americans whos misfortions left them to live on the streets relying on the generosity of others to have a single meal. In Prison you recieve 3 meals a day, a gym to exersise, a basketball court, you can have visiters, and you get a bed to sleep on. If you recieve the death penalty you can sit on death row for well over 20 years while your lawyers make appeals to the judges ruleing. And sometimes you get a lighter sentence. How is that fair to the victems families? It's not sometimes justice goes unserved. A man can brutily murder 10 people and get the death penalty. He sits on death row untill he's 50 then gets a painless needle in his arm to end his life. Justice is deny'd becuase we have criminal rights and a law that forbids cruel and unusual punishment.
I say EYE FOR AN EYE! Let the punishment fit the crime with no delays. If you cut an innocent life short you should have your life cut short and you should suffer physical pain that ammounts to the victems families emotional pain.

Police officers feel since they enforce the law they are above the law. When they see a minority in a decent car they automaticlly assume "Drug Dealer" and they pull them over and search the car. This is racial profileing and cops get away with it everyday. They also use unnessacary violence to break up protesters. Even though our constitution gives us them the right to be there. The 4th Amendment give us the freedom to assembly but the police and some goverment officials deny us that right everyday. They make people pay a fine to march in washington. Police are often foung guilty of tampering with evidence and lieing under oath because they don't want to be proven wrong. They find Being wrong embarising. So Innocent men and women spend the rest of their lives in jail and are sometimes exicuted becuase cops don't like being wrong.

Events like the world trade center bombing in 93 and the later attacts on September 11 are tragedies. My heart goes out to all the victems and there families and I hope that Osama Bin Laden is cuaght and killed. But i can't help but feel that the goverment and its forieng affairs is partially responsible. Everyday the United States exploits foreign countries and helps the destroy eachother for a profit. We involve ourself in conflicts on the side we feel is most likely to win. In doing so we are pissing off alot of people. There are several anti-american demonstraitions in countries all over the world. And several terrorist organizations bent on destroying the american goverment.
The only way to stop this is to remove ourselfs from foreign affairs and to close our borders keep a close watch on everyone who comes in and leaves the counrty.

In Conclusion i feel our goverment will be the downfall of this once great nation. I beleive we need to through out our exsisting constitution and put in a new one based on justice and freedom not just freedom. We need to premote equality without the use of discriminaltion. We need to think of the victems more then the criminals. The victems did nothing wrong yet they were forced to suffer. We need to teach police officers that they are not above the law they enforce and we need to teach goverment officials to respect the rights given to us by the constitution. Most of all we need to mind our own buisness we have poverty and needy people at home we have wars to win at home. It is not our responsibility to fight everyones battles for them. Other then tradeing goods we have no buisness with other nations. We should work on a Better American befor we worry about makeing a better world.

I Don't Go To Proms With Girls That Stab My Friends In The Back

Mon, 18 Feb 2002 18:25:01 GMT

forget it i don't wanna wast $100 on a tux and flowers for a girl who hurt one of my best friends and then goes around acting like nothings wrong just useing her. Stop Fucking with My Friends cuase you'll regret it in the end! I also don't go to proms with girls who go to my sister and act like they might get stuck with me. fuck you i'm going to 3 proms regardless and you can't find a date. now tell me whos the pathetic one.

I'M BACK

Tue, 22 Jan 2002 02:26:40 GMT

well i finally got an operating system on my PC i should have everything back to normal in a week GO ME

I'M OFF WORK THURSDAY SO IF SOMEONE WANTS TO CHILL CALL ME

Wed, 02 Jan 2002 20:03:09 GMT

................i'm bored

SHIT HAPPENS

Wed, 02 Jan 2002 20:00:56 GMT

i lost my aol account over a trojen horse and when i installed an anti virus program it came with another virus YAY......(sarcasm) now i have to reformat my PC but its ok at least i had a sucky new years i got wasted with relatives and didn't sleep. I havn't chilled with my friends in awhile so i can't wait till Friday.

MERRY MAYHEM

Mon, 24 Dec 2001 07:50:09 GMT

i know its been awhile since my last post but nothing important happend so nobody missed much. BUT TONIGHT i went to east rutherford NJ to see Ozzy's merry night of meyhem (i liked the old name, Black Christmas, Better) they had black santa hats and christmas stockings( I bought the stocking and a t-shirt),and a sleigh and a crucified santa on the ozzy cross. i missed soiled becuase we wound up in new york because of bad directions. oh well i made it for mudvayne so i'm happy. Mudvayne played: Iternal Primates Forever, -1, Death blooms, Cradel, Prod, Nothing to Gein, and DIG. i forget rob zombies and ozzy's set list but they were both incredable. Zakk Wyld did an amazeing solo and rob zombie has the best stage show i've ever seen He even showed a clip of house of 1,000 corpse's when he played the song. Ozzy Finished WIth Paroniod. His Introduction was funny as shit he did miss cleo, maddona,JLo, and he was in the moulan rouge song. well thatrs my last concert for awhile.

OSAMA BLACK LADEN

Sun, 02 Dec 2001 06:10:00 GMT

Tonight was like a second christmas with all the luaghter that was giveing to me. first off i got on the bus and some crazt black dude in front of me started building a bomb it was funny as hell. Gen got of at my stop so african Osama didn't blow her to bitswe walked to the 66 stop and some cop pulled over some guy it was funny as hellthen we saw the white oj in his ford bronco then gen got on the bus and i went home it was a funny night

I Rule

Mon, 19 Nov 2001 02:12:38 GMT

I am 100% Metal-Head.

I was born with the mark of the beast on my forehead and an axe in my arms. I am the god of all things metal! Now if only I could get my parents to give me back my car keys.....

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I'm 105% go me

Thu, 15 Nov 2001 19:28:23 GMT

I AM 45% GOTH.

Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a
good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps
through my viens, but I can still laugh
at myself.

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I AM 18% GEEK.

I wanna be a geek. But I'm not. Why would
I even want to be one. Do I think it's fun?
I should try writting an online test application at 1
am in my underwear.

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I am 42% Grunge.

What's this? The longest I've been without a shower is three days? Not even close, man. I should go sit out in the rain for a week.

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HAHAHA

Tue, 13 Nov 2001 04:35:33 GMT

HAHA

Tue, 13 Nov 2001 04:29:48 GMT

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I Joined a band

Tue, 13 Nov 2001 04:09:49 GMT

yeah go me i joined a band. i'm the singer. all i know is that there's 4 members i only know the bass player. the drummer don't have a drum set but is getting one in a few weeks. hopefully this won't end up like my past 2 bands......paniktwynge and social slaves where the members didn't show to the meetings or where we just didn't do anything. so i'm going to start writing more poetry...not song lyrics so i can have a good library to wright songs from. but i'm going to mostly work on the sond i want to sing with

I'm Annoyed by Hipocritical Crybabies

Mon, 12 Nov 2001 03:46:17 GMT

well a certain person desided to drop out of my life untill i stoped makeing fun of shim. What It failed to relize is that shim makes fun of me too and throws all of its bad attitude's and problems at me like I actually feel like dealing with it and then It starts makeing fun of me and when i return fire shim run's away like alittle crybaby and tells me that untill i acknowledge it's feelings it don't want nothing to do with me

THAT'S DAN'S PHONE NUMBER!

Sat, 03 Nov 2001 04:40:29 GMT

ok today was good i got "sick" so i stayed home from school but i was fine for work then i went to the mall and ran into everybody. i bought the flaw cd and ran in everyone except stan becuase stan's got a girl squeesong his balls so tightly i'm suprised he even knows my name still but i had fun. tommorow i hope's the same but we won't know untill tomorow oh and i got in trouble for not calling casey so i'll have to call her this week but thats all for now later